F*ck you, finals! Seriously!
02/09/2013 5 Comments
Stress of finals is infuriating. All I feel is mixed up feelings of anger, worry, depression, any melancholic feeling. And it’s all because of these stupid finals.
My routine these days is, wake up at 8-9 am. Have a cup of coffee, and chocolate, study till 3-4pm. Nap till 6pm, wake up relax till 8pm. Study my but off till 2am. And all day I only have coffee and chocolate to keep me going. My sleeping is screwed up, my diet is screwed up, my whole way of thinking is screwed up. I’ve never ever stayed awake till 2am studying. But desperate times call for desperate measures, and I’m that desperate (yeah me. The overly optimistic person, who turned to a pessimist)
Like seriously, these finals are turning me not into a nerd, but into this overly emotional nerd, with people setting way too many high expectations for me, and I’m afraid I won’t be able to live up to these expectations. I can’t live up to my own expectations.
I want to be the best, and being the best is a lot to live up too.
I seriously can’t wait till finals are over. I need a break. Too much memorizing, too much stuff I have no clue about, and actually find pointless.
(overly emotional 1st year biology student!)